The Only Way Around is Through

Over the last nine years, I've had eight pregnancies. Two ended in the births of my daughters, Lily (8) and Ella (5). Five have ended in losses between 5 and 16 weeks. Chemical pregnancy, miscarriage, missed miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and late miscarriage are all part of my history. Finally, my 8th and final pregnancy, brought us our baby boy, Will, who has Down syndrome. With the loss of Olivia at 16 weeks on October 5, 2014, I turned to writing as a way to work through the challenges.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

20 Weeks

October 28, 2014

Today I would have been 20 weeks pregnant. I would have been halfway to meeting my beautiful daughter in March. Instead I am empty. I am grieving. I am a week from returning to work and scared to death about how I will function. I am worried that I will never again have the opportunity to conceive, carry, and deliver a healthy baby. Today I would have been halfway to meeting my beautiful daughter and instead I’m three weeks past delivering her lifeless body.

The Only Way Around is Through

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

20 Weeks

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