The Only Way Around is Through

Over the last nine years, I've had eight pregnancies. Two ended in the births of my daughters, Lily (8) and Ella (5). Five have ended in losses between 5 and 16 weeks. Chemical pregnancy, miscarriage, missed miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and late miscarriage are all part of my history. Finally, my 8th and final pregnancy, brought us our baby boy, Will, who has Down syndrome. With the loss of Olivia at 16 weeks on October 5, 2014, I turned to writing as a way to work through the challenges.

Saturday, January 31, 2015

The Year With 11 Months

December 15, 2014

The month of October was spent in utter despair. As I’ve come out of the fog, I’ve realized that it’s like I lost a month of 2014. It came and went, and it feels like I just wasn’t there.

And in reality, I wasn’t. I physically wasn’t in the places I would normally be: work, dance, doctor appointments. I wasn’t doing the things I would normally do: taking care of my children, housework, outings with friends. I certainly wasn’t mentally there. It’s like a month of my life is just unaccounted for.

The Only Way Around is Through

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Saturday, January 31, 2015

The Year With 11 Months

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