Cursed

October 27, 2014

We’ve had due dates in February, March (2), April, June, July, and August.  Of all those due dates, we actually had a baby in May (due June 15th but born 5 weeks early due to severe preeclampsia) and August.  We’ve had losses in June (2013), July (2009), August (2006), October (2014) and December (2011). I feel like certain times of year are just cursed and now it leaves me wanting avoid those months.  When you combine all the due dates and loss dates, there just doesn’t seem to be much left.

Perhaps a September-December baby would be just the ticket.  At least we haven’t had any due dates during that time of year. January is too close to the terrible string of February-April due date losses (4!) so it has to be omitted.  Let’s see, that means I would need to get pregnant in December-March.  It is pretty unlikely we will even begin to try until at least January due to recurrent loss testing.  Even January might be a bit of a stretch.  So then you have to remember that I only have one tube left and the likelihood of this specific timing seems pretty, well, unlikely.  

It’s silly to think that time of year matters, but at the same time it’s hard to ignore the reality.  Due dates in February-April equal losses in June-August (and Olivia in October).

Months that are completely “clear” of loss associations: May, September, November, and maybe January.