The Only Way Around is Through

Over the last nine years, I've had eight pregnancies. Two ended in the births of my daughters, Lily (8) and Ella (5). Five have ended in losses between 5 and 16 weeks. Chemical pregnancy, miscarriage, missed miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and late miscarriage are all part of my history. Finally, my 8th and final pregnancy, brought us our baby boy, Will, who has Down syndrome. With the loss of Olivia at 16 weeks on October 5, 2014, I turned to writing as a way to work through the challenges.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Sensory Overload

December 21, 2014

I came home from a Friday evening of dance to a gathering of my family. My brother Adam and his family had come to town for Olivia’s memorial, and that drew my mom, step-dad and younger siblings to our house too. I knew everyone would be there when I got home and really hadn’t given it much thought.

But the second I got home, I noticed all the LIGHT. I think every light on the first floor was on. And the NOISE. So many people were talking and visiting. I immediately felt overwhelmed. One small thing after another quickly built up. I lashed out at my mom, one of the people I have gotten the most support from. Then I grabbed my brother and rushed upstairs just as the tears erupted.

The Only Way Around is Through

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Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Sensory Overload

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