The Only Way Around is Through

Over the last nine years, I've had eight pregnancies. Two ended in the births of my daughters, Lily (8) and Ella (5). Five have ended in losses between 5 and 16 weeks. Chemical pregnancy, miscarriage, missed miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, and late miscarriage are all part of my history. Finally, my 8th and final pregnancy, brought us our baby boy, Will, who has Down syndrome. With the loss of Olivia at 16 weeks on October 5, 2014, I turned to writing as a way to work through the challenges.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Guilt

October 27, 2014

I feel guilty. Why am I not satisfied with the two healthy children we DO have? Why can’t I just walk away and say that two is enough. Two is great! There are many people who can’t even have one child. So what is wrong with me that I am not satisfied? We could spare ourselves so much emotionally. We could spare ourselves the cost of testing to try to find a cause. We could spare ourselves the uncertainty of will it ever end up happily again?

The Only Way Around is Through

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Sunday, December 14, 2014

Guilt

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